The blue notebook was for unhappy thoughts. This was the one I used the most. The red notebook was for angry thoughts. I found this one frightening and did not like using it at all. The yellow notebook was for happy thoughts. I lost it long ago.
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Notes:
1. Written on November 4th, 2022
__________Yoghurt
I bought a posher yoghurt than usual
because it was on offer
and therefore cheaper
than the yoghurts
that aren’t as posh
that I usually buy
It was one of those
where the yoghurt is on top
and the fruit beneath
unmixed
in a geological layer
at the bottom of the tub
When I got round to eating it
I ate from the top
down
forgetting to mix it up
or whatever it is
you’re supposed to do
So at the bottom
I was left with
a centimetre or so
of thin blueberry jam
which wasn’t very nice
when eaten on its own
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Knee
My knee aches
occasionally
and I dream of it snapping
suddenly
when I’m out for a walk
or climbing up the stairs
in the bookshop
and the spectacle I’d make
screaming in the park
or tumbling backwards
onto a table
piled high
with paperbacks
that I’ve no interest
in reading
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The last page of the notebooks I keep in my pocket wherever I go
This last page is usually filled
with the names of books
that I’ve seen round the shops
and thought that look interesting
that I can’t afford to buy
But it’s empty this time
because I’ve not been to the shops
since before this notebook began
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Notes:
1. I wrote these on July 21st, 2018
2. I had just been reading a book by Tim Key
3. And was overcome by the urge to poem
4. Or whatever the term is
5. Unfortunately the results were a bit of a disappointment
6. Also there was a fourth poem
7. It was called Piss
8. And went:
Piss
That’s what I said
Because
That’s what I thought
Piss
9. But it was too poor to include here
10. So I left it in the notebook