4/3/4 (#4)

yet another
of these poems

that aren’t really
poems at
all, now, are they


#79: spite, obduracy

the whole point of
this is that
it annoys you


#80: a failure of words

there is not a
clear way to
say this at all


#81: on pens #1

i don’t like this
pen but its
all i have left


#82: on pens #2

ink doesn’t flow
across the page


#83: on pens #3

scratching away
the paper
each word a scar


#84: on pens #4

left the lid off
ink’s gone dry
pen thrown in bin


#85: sufficiently advanced self-awareness is indistinguishable from self-pity

i do not like
who i am
even slightly


#86: on waking #3

my brain has shrunk
like a voles
in midwinter


#87: lost in a dream (variation #1)

lost in a dream
of a life
hazy, drifting


#88: lost in a dream (variation #2)

lost in a dream
of my own
constant failings


#89: lost in a dream (variation #3)

lost in a dream
of a world


#90: bird poem #1

seven egrets
in a row
still as statues


#91: bird poem #2

a thousand ducks
braced against
the winter wind


#92: bird poem #3

crow flying off
holding an
egg in its beak


#93: bird poem #4

the cormorant
dives below
gulls hover above


#94: bird poem #5

a swan’s feather
floating past
caught in the wind


#95: the coming end of the bird poem cycle

cat sauntering
across road
over the fence


#96: happiness

road black with rain
heavy boots
joy of puddles



the puddle fits
in its own hole


#98: despair #1

made the mistake
of reading
twitter today


#99: despair #2

some people seem
to really
want civil war


#100: waiting for the doors #1

phone-lit faces
the snaking queue


#101: waiting for the doors #2

cigarette smoke
matching breath
bring your own fog


#102: the end of the process

this little box
is full now
of written words


#103: a lifetime of regrets

so many words
i shouldn’t
ever have said



a perfect world
as silent
and still as snow



1. Written in September and October 2019
2. The three previous collections of 4/3/4 poems can be found here, here and here
3. Bird poem #3 was actually based on a misidentification
4. And it was a walnut in the crow’s beak
5. rather than an egg
6. I disocvered this yesterday, when a crow dropped a walnut on the road in front of me
7. from it’s perch on the roof of the house
8. trying to crack it
9. but failing.
10. But then I noticed that the whole road was littered with walnut shell shrapnel
11. pleasing proof of their eventual success


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