Tuesday 1st April, 2025
Birds are endlessly fascinating
yet always strangely
unknowable
I would like to be their friend
but know
no friendship is possible
Wednesday 2nd April, 2025
Back in my bedroom
redecorated
and rearranged
Its nice
and strangely spacious
after 11 years
of the old furniture
formation
Thursday 3rd April, 2025
At the park
a swan
for the first time in years
Friday 4th April, 2025
The sun was out
and we sat a robin
building itself a nest
and looking quite happy
with itself
Saturday 5th April, 2025
Sunny day
early birthday party
Could have been summer
nearly
Sunday 6th April, 2025
Easter eggs in the garden
a full two weeks
before easter
(eggs
in the garden)
Monday 7th April, 2025
The ruins
of old castle
have been ruins
for hundreds of years longer
than they were castles
Tuesday 8th April, 2025
Crabs
in a bucket
looking lost
forlorn
furious
frightened
alone
Wednesday 9th April, 2025
A tiny train station
in an Essex cul de sac
as if it was a private platform
for two random families
Thursday 10th April, 2025
Bookcases
and shelves
back on my walls
I almost feel
home
again
Friday 11th April, 2025
A moon rising
above the hill
as bright as any sun
Monday 14th April, 2025
I want to be moved
but mostly
feel bored
Tuesday 15th April, 2025
Some times I have ideas that I know years ago I’d have done something with. But now I just allow them to fade away unmade
Wednesday 16th April, 2025
Depressed
and sick
and more tired
than I will probably truly ever know
Thursday 17th April, 2025
Today
was mostly
quite a nice
day
Friday 18th April, 2025
The water
leaks
endlessly
through unseen
gaps
There is no stopping it
no matter how much
you try
Saturday 19th April, 2025
The sea is too bright
too wide
too frighteningly deep
Tuesday 29th April, 2025
A spot under the hair on the back of my head
feels
astonishingly huge
yet in reality
is barely even there
Wednesday 30th April
Today I spent almost all of my money (on a new laptop)
And I barely even felt guilty
for once
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Notes:
1. Written April 2025
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